Father Figure

Larger than life

deeper than love

my saviour from strife

I find peace in your grove

an ocean of relief 

your presence is

a perennial belief 

that life is bliss

your comforting voice

will din my every scream

save my grace and poise

in finding my every dream

I promise to try my every way

to be like you in life some day

I dream of being like my Dad some day soon..... 

Umbitter Lust

Be it dawn, noon or dusk
My senses seek your magic musk
In your absence I often think
I will reach insanity's brink
To taste your adult flavor
And its richness for moments savor
So often have I tried to sneak
To have you in my moments weak
If from you I have to abstain
No other company will I entertain
I profess my love most true
To you, my umber bitter brew!

And you thought .... ;-)?

Addict's Verdict

Some habits like people I want for keeps
Where absence is all that makes me weep
Rain or sunshine, my Sundays ain’t same
Without my caffeine fix, the mornings’ so lame

I love, hug, kiss, enjoy, and cherish my coffee... and if its from my mom's kitchen, freshly brewed degree filter coffee, I love it ten times more...... I can go without food and water but never my kaapi!

I sometimes recall my gypsy days

When I was content in every way

the days I drank just rum and coke

the days when I was happy and mostly broke

wearing dreams like my flouncy skirt

and an attitude quite immune to hurt

though I drifted and wandered about

I stayed the same always no doubt

later I outgrew my gypsy garb

But I didnt do so because of any barb

I have realized what I love about me

Is that at heart a gypsy I'll always be

The gypsy in me shall never die! This is one quality I love about myself :-)

Disciple's Woe

To defend you is insult enough

but to not is even more tough

I wonder how to let it go

to not tell them what all I know

A mind ahead of your times you were

A storm of the highest did you stir

Very often when I talk about my favorite teacher Osho, I am more often than not confronted with his media made image of a sex guru. People who haven't even read anything about him have told me I have warped my head by reading his works. To defend him is such an insult to the man who said courage is the crux of everything - love, trust etc... and who also said "dont follow me." A man and mind ahead of his times.... I wish I could have experienced his presence atleast once in my lifetime! I am so grateful to my parents for introducing me to his writing.

Abridged

I think it not we drifted apart
but built an endless bridge heart to heart

I don't think I can ever break or burn bridges..... distance( in the heart & mind) makes the strong and mature heart build spectacular and everlasting bridges. I am mapped to everyone in my universe by these bridges.

Closure

To shun, shut or shirk

with me would never work

from casual to formal

so suddenly isn't normal

my heart lurked in danger

in accepting you as a stranger

but as absurdly honest is life

this hasn't been a strife

Unknown hidden some where

Did I have strength to bear

that what was we is dead

I found closure in my head

Don't look for closure when it's in your head darling!