Energy Unbound

No room for thought or trouble
the pulse races and heart beats double
The music is up and my hair is down
I lose myself and into the rhythm i drown

.................How I love to dance!! I cant wait to be on a dance floor again.

Suspension

Solitude surrounded strange strife
I find abundant in today's life


................. I want to go out but I want to stay in .......... I am free to do as I please, yet bound to my seat..............

Loss

Greatest fears I frequently fight
Loss of perspective and words to write

....writers block ..... is such a bitch

Search

In this day is there a dearth
of men of making, manner and mirth?
are there characters so very rare
that it takes only test of time to bare
I am being tried of my patience best
I am dying to end this endless quest
Courage, joy, and happiness i feign
when truthful solitude drives me insane

..................Hmmmm ........................ single life has its shelf life.

Muse in waiting

words and looks are of what use
when I am not blessed as your desire's muse

The nameless Bard

I try in my efforts oh so hard
to bring to life that nameless bard
if in love I ever find my way
it would be with him forever to stay

.......... A man of great words, poetry and reading....sigh....if only I could be his muse.........like fair viola.

Fishing in the Stars

Try all your luck for the ultimate catch
but its all in vain if your stars dont match!!

A cynical outlook at the arranged marraige, and match making. It worries me perfectly educated, smart and wordly wise men want non mangliks, non chevvai dosham, non blah blah. It doesnt really cost much to turn the stars the other way does it? Where is the concept of trust, gut feel, and chemistry? Sigh....

The Impression

How shall I say what I saw?
The overcoming feeling of wonderous awe
to describe a face that so strikingly captured
that my nerves did suspend for time in rapture


.... A reflection on a very goodlooking person I recently came by. A face so handsome, a blend of confidence and modesty - for a man, in my opinion most lethal a combination.
I am not mentioning any more.

Warning Signs

How I wish that I'd somehow know
Whatever the absurd signs show
taking each day is it comes I try
only to have one more reason never to cry!!

Yes, what I am going through now, in Singapore cannot be better summarized. With each incident, experience and person I have met, while I have shed the stray tear or two, I have come across equal number of incident, and many more people, who have made life wonderful here. Reason enough I dont sometimes think of what I've left behind.

If they are reading this, then they know who they are. I thank them for wiping my tears when i grazed myself here. I am hugging them hard.

Sweet

This act most brazen under the stars
somewhere between beauty and bizzaire
A silent consent, is all it took
And all smiles it leaves when I think back and look!

.....Yes not look back and think, this case think back and look. Dedicated to a very good friend.

The way I see Things

heroes, heroines, villains and clowns
sporting masks of smiles and frowns
changing in and out roles
of characters inherited, or stole
curtain calls that drop appear off script
of some plots that have no drift
endless rehearsals ever after
lines we try master but get no dafter
building audiences over years
showcasing our talents and our fears
moving cities with our show
adding to the aisle a few more rows
living this karmic drama each day
with some more lines to act and say
In awe I think of this master creator
who built this world - the live theater

Knotted

since when did i care and let creep in bother?
when busy engaging and marrying are world and its mother!!!!!

I am seeing so many people getting married. Ladies my age, couples, friends getting engaged. I was averse to the idea a while back only to realize deeply that somewhere in my heart I want to tie the knot soon. Before my tongue gets sharper, and likes and dislikes and stronger. I am constantly reminded about this by helpful well wishers.

Flash Back

Recollecting some poetic past
of time that came and flew so fast
smiling sweet and melancholy
washed over with memories ruefully
I wish every once in a while
to revisit time i had frequent flier miles


Sometimes I wanna go back in time and freeze it :-)

Trying Hard

Romantic sadness i try to feign
of tears,rows,pardon and pain
to change direction i take stance
to see only good with every glance

I want to BE POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

as i say bye to one more past
and openly hug the new one cast
i hope and pray this year shall bring
lots of happiness and songs to sing
that ure presence in my life shall fill
for all that this year made so nill
and in every moment that means much
pain,joy,triumph,and such
i always find myself with you
and make my absences completely few

this is dedicated only to a few of my best friends. who i will kill for. never ever missed them more..

The Kottayam Kollection

Amidst nowhere I dwell
soaking silently swell
the odd cicada shrieks
life crackles and creaks
as rain graces our lives
changing torture to thrive
nature glowers full bloom
canopy covered skies loom
discarding frenzy and fraught
i drench in rain soaked thoughts

......................A glorious rainy pining moment sitting idle on the thinnai of our tharavad at Puzhayoram.


If I had my way now
I'll marry for money not for love

.................Irony at its semi best. Reflections at the gorgeous Lake Resort at Kottayam. Honeymooners ultimate destination. The one place I'd love to spend with the one I love to bits. But the tariff is uffffffffffffffffff only two nights affordable.


pried and Pested

If you ask me
to express free
I may reveal
what you not feel
I beg you not
to entrust me this thought
go your way
with time make hay
seek you smiles
for those petty whiles
then knock my doors
to need me some more
our hearts now wry of wrath
cause our thoughts sought their paths

.........Important lesson learnt. If there is a difference of opinion please do only as you please. Don't ask me what I feel and do that to make me feel good. I swear I wont. I take pride in your pride. Please do as you please. Comfort me later all your best!!! :-)


Peacemaker

Inhale exhale sigh and sweep
dwell into thoughts shallow and deep
through vodka,coffee or just oxygen
through day, night, where and when
lame excuses I make to quit
only to have the last one lit
well I don't cheat, kill or speak lies
So let me cherish my only vice


(In)security

darting vision nervous wreck
scrutinize characters shred to speck
grasp to grip tension speaks
spirit grows morose and meek
reproach, reinforce,reiterate
my anxiety , your love sooner than late
hold, caress, kiss and smile
this mental mess peel and pile
Give me no proof or pity
just let me bask (In)security

.............The best example of a confused mind. insecure.

LeftOvers

If I let go of you
took memories few
shed some penitent tears
allowed your presence to leer
swallowed my pride to face
a life rid of your trace
and turned back once to see
........in my mirror was not me.

A breakup good bad or neutral is bound to be if its bound to be.It can change the best for worse, the worst to the best. Though most of the time we re so caught up with the past present and future of ourselves...we dont realise the former from the later.No its not happening to me. :-)

Slumber

Eyes wide shut fingers curled
feet apart hands hurled
awareness amiss
baneless bliss
a silence so noisy I hear not
even a slyly creeping thought
of people,premise,position and poise
or some vaguely vapid volumeless voice
unshaken,unabashed,undisturbed I lay
silently breathing my recent past away

I sleep just five hours a day.........but I love my sleep. The only time I ever connect with my self. When my mind body and soul are all collinear.............sigh!

Truth Spoken

We came as no surprise
To see some fall, some rise
As we tried climbing
Sometimes fast, sometimes tumbling
You held our fingers
Letting hope linger
Showed us the way
Gave us strength to stay
When we were lost
Sometimes out cold in frost
You showed us the fire
Letting our hearts retire
We have so much to tell
For your memory is all that dwells
In our moments worst and best
In our times of trial and test
We will take our steps ahead
Showing us the way you had led.

A dedication to someone who’s experience I had even though few, I will cherish all my life. Demise brings so many things together. We realize what trivial and silly things we fought over. The bridges we broke, somehow fall back in place. Which is why they were never meant to be broken anyway? Did we need a lesson so tough to make us learn?

Space,Silence,Sense

Scream, shout, swear
None too much to bear
Don’t talk for days ahead
Let communication go dead
Two lives apart we can lead
To others pay no heed
I’d rather stay away
Than hear the words you say
With no care, intention or mind
But none too very kind
And live each day after
With interrupted laughter


Its not for nothing we've been told think before you speak. Sometimes there are no intentions to what we say. We didn't mean it we explain. But these are the demons that lead to sudden silences during happy times. That lead to some sleepless nights. Some unwanted tears. Sometimes defeating so many other good intentions simply because we cannot fathom where, why and whom it came from.......
A sincere apology to anyone I might have unintentionally hurt in the past with mindless words.