To the ultimate Influence

I ve started my journey far and wide
Through pleasant weather and changing tides
I ve so far climbed some hills and peaks
But the horizons are always far to seek
I ve fallen ill and sometimes stumbled
I ve passed many moments with prayers mumbled
There have been times when I wanted to end it all
But through these times I always stood tall
My quest at some point I must confess
Could have ended very meaningless
But for when at cross roads I stood
Grappled for all the meaning I could
And there you came passing by
Just as I was about to cry
You revealed the biggest truth there was to be
And that completely set me free
To trust myself and myself alone
And not to be some dictate’s clone
To be dishonesty’s last slave
And always be amongst the brave
To say sorry was better than not try
Cause its only with initiative one can fly
I know at some point I must end
But you know that’s too less for a great friend!!!!!!!!


………………A dedication to a person who makes the biggest difference to my life. Naveen Narayanan, the one who lives the term friend philosopher and guide through every day of my life. Lucky are those of us whose lives have been touched by this great person. Very very lucky indeed. Words do not suffice....

Theater Drama

corporate madness one of a kind
Theater drama my latest find
came past it through a family friend
thought I'd muster all support I could lend
ended up in a play she called great
None ever so big done till date
Then I realised what I'd done
To escape I found excuses none
the friend that was, was turning terror
I didnt quite know where was the error
all I had to do was just dance
and show up somewhere at whatever chance
as rehersals went by the day
I started liking what came my way
I love practise immensely now
This change came about I know how
Its not the play or the purpose
Its the people absolutely ofcourse
even the director who eats my head
or the producer who thinks iam braindead
the journo by night and what else by day
the crazy kid who eats all the way
the photographer madly in love
the heroine who only looks above
the dancer sweet tempered most time
stage manager who has it easy as a rhyme
this could go one till god knows when
there would be still more to quote even then
all I'd say is I dunno how
I am just so glad this happened NOW


I am a part of a thearter production. Its crazy. I always want to bunk practise before I go. But when I finish with it I feel damn good. I ve met some really nice people.People who do their work with admirable dedication and expertise and are yet so modest and down to earth. Mention Samanth, Sunder and Lasya ( who I ve admired immensely as a kid). Many of the kids I ve met here too...esp Namratha the crazy little thing thats always eating between rehersal.Karan the supposed stage manager who send irritating morning messages and doesnt know what he is doing in this play yet being there day in and day out buying us food and being subject to a lot of bullying from me and Namratha.
I immensely enjoy the people I meet. There is no better way to learn in life.However eccentric they might seem, I realise what I see is what I think. So enjoying these people might just mean I am fun right???? Ummmm Uhhhhhh!!!!!

Hahahahaha

the upbringing

ours is a home of four
chaos and fun ceiling to floor
pretty mom and fun dad
bro and sis totally mad
went to schools best of all
saw the scenes big and small
learnt the lessons from language to love
and laughed our way from the scene above
college came and went past quick
the best we were recruiter's pick
life couldnt be better at twenty two
so soon so much has past flew
much has changed since I dunno
but I ve gone ahead with the flow
there aint a day I dont say thanks
to the ones who filled the blanks!!!!!!!!


A totally silly dedication to my wonderful parents and brother. I ve seen friends, relationships,teachers,bosses, come and go.......they all make up various dimensions of my multi dimensional self.I ve learnt from all and gone past all. I ve sometimes stepped aside and looked back,,,,sometimes selfishly moved ahead,,,when I ve lookback it means I still cared about them,,,,when I dont it means I give a shit......but whats never to change is the friendship i cherish with my folks and brother. I really respect the freedom me and arvind ve been brought up with. Its something no other shild would get! just like what daddy says and continues to dole out in huge measures day in day out. People could take a lesson on women's lib from my folks who practise it without even realising it.

weakened woes

friday fever rises high
weekends here with a sigh
seven o clock much awaited
five day tension satiated
saturday comes eargerly
day goes past meagerly
afternoon beer at b n b
was the only highlight it seems to me
i go past events in a daze
all i do is just laze
anticipate his presence each hour
the worst is all that seems so sure
the day has come and gone past soon
its been horrid sun to moon
i hit the sack with the best to take
a plesantly rythmic throbbing headache!!!!


...........tribute to a fucked up saturday and to a more fucked up weekend. I hate wasted weekends!!!!

broken dates

clothes tossed and pressed
for the anxious to be dressed
eyes defined lips fuller
somehow the mood just gets duller
check myself again
smile myself for the worry to feign
phone rings
heart sings
ears perk
sick feeling lurks
reluctantly listen
some cheer is missin
this beaten path once more i tread
to hear what the whole day i dread
the date is broken
with the tears a token
i sit by the window
pace to and fro
the decorations fall
with the dreaded call
i toss on bed
going over whats said
finally sets in relief
mind turns a new leaf
i sleep myself to tomorrow
after tonights date sorrow




The discomfort i experience everytime we fuck up plans and tomorrow's new years eve plan. I am dreading staying back home. This is something I am very superstitious about.

corporate madness

timezones talk
damn the body clock
caffiene breaks
always more to take
inbetween rendezvous
gossip madness in the loo
seeking a pathbreaking hunch
threw listless lunch
a deadline to meet
u wanna put up ure feet
insecurity ure worst friend
leaves u at wits end!!!!


its not always so bad......i love corporate life and working under pressure. even if its this way most of the time

Vacation Bliss

Fifteen days fun and frolic
for the well deserving workaholic
sleep,food,and exersise
life has been such a surprise
december breeze and arbid rain
jogging thru dusty lanes
placid ocean pink sun
day doesnt begin day aint done


lame attempts at capturing my state of mind....blissful

Will start posting soon......

This is my third attempt at blogging....the first two aborted because they turned out to be sickeningly depressing sentimental trash or root canal in a heatwavish frustration.....